Friday, May 30, 2008

Foto Friday

I hate moving...

People touching my stuff...

All our worldly possessions in boxes...

Feeling disorganized and discombobulated....

Sweaty people touching my stuff....

Worrying about what will get broken this time...

Feeling like a man without a country...

Strange, sweaty people touching my stuff...

Living out of a suitcase for months...

Wondering where my _____ is and realizing that it got packed....

Not having my stuff....

I hate moving...

Monday, May 26, 2008

Thursday, May 22, 2008

I hate leaving...

There, I said it...I . Hate . Leaving .

We have started the long process of making sure we see everyone to say goodbye before we leave. I have gotten into the habit of not saying 'Goodbye' but 'See you later!' With the military community being as small as it is, I have come to know that I will indeed see them later. Case in point, we are having a reunion this fall of folks that we knew back before Bubba and I got married. We will get together and it will be like no time has passed. That is one of the things I love about our life. Even though we might not stay in touch like we would like to, we can always pick up our friendship as though we just saw each other yesterday. But, I digress.

Leaving. We should be used to it by now. And I should be looking forward to leaving this time since we are going where we want to go and retirement is around a not-so-distant corner. But, I am not. I hate the saying goodbye, the pulling up shallow roots, the vacating of a home, the leap into unfamiliarity. I hate knowing that some of the friends I have made will always be Germany Friends, not lifelong friends. Not because they aren't special to me because I truly treasure every friendship I have been blessed with, but because they are just the type of friendships that pass through our lives. They are friends with an 'use by' date. We will eventually lose touch and that makes me a bit sad. I also hate closing the door on our home for the last time, knowing all the memories that are shut up inside that house. It was our home for a time...that is what we make of it. I lived in only two houses before I met Bubba and my parents still live in one of them. Those two houses are my childhood homes. The homes I have made with Bubba and Boyboy are in our hearts...we will always have our memories of those houses and may even visit them at times but the memories we made inside those houses are the true homes. And, finally I hate the uncertainty and unfamiliarity of what lies ahead. New experiences, new neighbors, new schools, churches, grocery stores are all adjustments. I am not good at change...I adapt slowly.

So, in short...I hate leaving.

Friday, May 16, 2008

Just for Fun

Found this over at When Life Gives you Lemons (

I just had to do it.
Put your iPod (or iRiver) on shuffle (unless it is an early version iPod, one that doesn’t have shuffle) and press next for each question. Write down the song that’s playing as an answer.
1) How would you describe yourself? I'm On Fire - Bruce Springsteen (Ok, we're off to a good start)
2) What do you like in a guy/girl? The First Cut is the Deepest - Rod Stewart (Hmmmm)
3) What is your motto? The Thunder Rolls - Garth Brooks (In like a lion?)
4) What do your friends think of you? Anyway you want it - Journey
5) What do you think about often? Best of My Love - Emotions (Maybe)
6) What do your parents think of you? Superstar - Jamulia (Right on!)
7) What do you think of your best friend? Around the Way Girl - DJ Jazzy Jeff and The Fresh Prince (Yikes - which best friend does this describe?)
8) What do you think of the person you like? Burning Dog - Sugar Ray (Hmmmm)
9) What do you want to be when you grow up? Back at Your Door - Maroon 5 (Creepy, since we are moving back home just in time for Bubba to retire)
10) What do you think when you see the person you like? She's Got a Way - Billy Joel (Hmmm, he's got a way...)
11) What song will they play at your wedding? She's Always a Woman - Billy Joel (Two Billy Joels in a row - I thought this was "shuffle")
12) What will they play at your funeral? If You Love Somebody, Set Them Free - Sting (WOW!)
13) What is your hobby/interest? I Hope - Dixie Chicks (I hope I have a hobby)
14) What is your biggest fear? Some Days You Gotta Dance - Dixie Chicks (Hopefully not in public - and again with the two in a row!)
15) What is your biggest secret? That Was a River - Collin Raye ????
16) What do you think of your friends? Let It Be - Brooke White (Sometimes...)
17) What is your theme song? Fins - Jimmy Buffet (Am I the only bait in town?)
18) What do you think of your family? She's Everything - Garth Brooks (Well, they are everything to me)
19) What is your best friend’s theme song? Sin Wagon - Dixie Chicks (Again, which best friend are we talking about?)
20) What is your mood right now? O My God - Police (Seems to be my mood a lot lately)
21) If your heart could talk what would it say? Let Him Fly - Hootie and the Blowfish (Boyboy?)
22) What do your co-workers think of you? Gimme Some Lovin' - Spencer Davis Group (Gimme, gimme, gimme)
23) What does your future look like? Paris - Faith Hill (I wish...)

This was fun...sometimes laugh out loud funny. See what happens when you do it...

Foto Friday

Thursday, May 15, 2008

Bubba Home!

So, Bubba is back from two weeks in the field and besides the insurmountable mountain of laundry in the basement, I am SO glad he is home. Ever since he got back from his deployment in July, when he is not here I miss him more than ever. I guess it brings back to front and center the pain from last year. Last year was hard. Enough said. I don't ever want to go back there again. One of the driving forces behind Bubba deciding that the time is right for retirement is that he doesn't want to deploy again. Twenty-two years in the Army, countless short deployments, multiple long ones have taken their toll on him. Folks who are not in the military seem to live under the idea that for us it gets easier every time....that we get used to them being gone. They couldn't be more wrong. Whether the time away is just over the weekend for training or for longer, it is NEVER easy. With each absence, Bubba is missing time...time with BoyBoy playing Command and Conquer on the computer or Legos in the basement, time with me discussing what we want to be when we grow up or just holding hands on the patio. That is time we will never get back. Don't get me wrong, I love the Army life and I am a little bit terrified of what life will be like in the "real world", but there are times when I wonder what it have been like if Bubba had been a corporate geek and we had stayed put from the beginning. And then, I remember...we have had the chance to see the world, face our fears, have the difficult conversations, and meet a melting pot of friends who know our pain and will live it with us for the rest of our lives. And then, I am thankful. I wouldn't trade it for anything.

Sunday, May 11, 2008

Happy Mother's Day

Happy Mother's Day to every mother out there. It has been such a blessing for me to experience the joy, frustration, happiness, sorrow, love and fun of being a mom. Boyboy is not always the easiest child but I know that I am so fortunate to have a healthy, bright, funny child who worships the ground that Bubba walks on and loves me, warts and all. From the day Bubba and I found out we were going to have him, I have thanked God for the miracle that is Boyboy. He continues to amaze me every day with his wit, charm, and brains. I am trying hard to keep up with him and I hope that he still lets me hold his hand for many more years to come. Thanks, Boyboy for making me a mom. I love you.

Wednesday, May 7, 2008

Things I am not looking forward to back in the States

  • Thunderstorms - this is a double edged sword since I love listening to thunderstorms but, my poor Melly is sooooo terrified of them that she becomes almost inconsolable. We have had maybe 5 thunderstorms in the last 3 years and I think there have been that many this past week in Virginia.
  • American drivers - sorry, Germans are very predictable in their driving...passing on the left, signaling when changing lanes, never running a red light. Americans, not so much.
  • The cost of living...cell phone, cable, mortgage, etc. - all things we have been lucky to keep low over here, I know will put a larger dent in our budget.
  • The faster pace of life...there is something to be said for stores being closed on Sunday and long, lingering dinners.

For the most part, I am thrilled to be going back to the states. I will miss all of the wonderful friends I have made this tour and the amazing country of Germany. I will also miss being able to go to France for lunch!

Sunday, May 4, 2008

Things I am looking forward to back in the States

  • Target...enough said.
  • Being closer to family
  • Finally being able to put down roots.
  • Malls
  • Not having to translate everything, from street signs to restaurant menues to my cable bill

I know there are more...there is just so much to love about America. Only 30 more days...

Saturday, May 3, 2008

It's about time!

AHHHHHHH, Spring has finally arrived in Germany!

Just askin'

Is there an unwritten rule for businesses that when they schedule an appointment to be at your house between 9am and 5pm that they are required to show up at 4:45pm?